Why am I still feeling like this? It's already been 1 year, 10 months, 1 week and 6 days. But every time I see her I still have slight feelings. The ignorance is not helping either. And people constantly telling me to forget her and whatever bullshit about how she's not good enough is not helping at all. in fact I think it's making things worst for my emotions. I guess also that people can be real bitches. Screw it. Nice guys never win and in fact we come in last. All the time we spend trying to be a role model and whatever not crap just so we succeed in live and blah blah blah. I'm so sick and tired of it. In fact screw it to the max.
Someday I'll just rise above all of these. Its like half of me wants to forget her and the other half is holding on for dear life to her memories. Although they weren't much but i guess they mean more than the world to me. So what now? Haiz...
Yesterday was one of the shittiest days ever. Forget the fact about what happened earlier and how I ended up in JJ. But I saw her with a nother guy. Oddly the guy had to be my good friend's ex-bf. Hmmm..... Seems fishy to me. Anyways. It just felt so odd to be standing there watching them. I guess I made the right move by walking away.
Everyone keeps saying it's alright to feel this way or am I slowly losing my mind and my sanity?
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I guess I can say 'been there done that'.
ReplyDeleteAnd I fully understand what you're going through.
It's not easy; definitely not.
But hey don't blame yourself for feeling like this. Some people won't understand why but it's okay.
People change; sometimes we don't know why.
But always remember one thing; He never changes and through this period; continue to hold on.
'How would we submit to the authority to Christ if we had nothing to submit? It is the submission of our passion, not its eradication that is needed.'
and if you need someone to talk to; i'm here. =)
dude, let your senior teach u..
ReplyDeleteU know I know u know what ive been thru..^^
all u have to do is,
take a video of them..
post it on facebook with the title
"Bitches alert..avoid if necessary!!"